Food is my enemy!

Sooo...Like any other normal bride, I want to lose lot's of weight for the wedding. I want to look really good in my dress...the only problem is...I'm a fat kid through and through. I LOVE sweets and I love carbs. And I like to walk, but right now it is just too cold to walk outside. So I just sit inside, eat, and get fatter! It is SOO stressful!! I want to lose some weight, but not so much that it will cost me an arm and a leg to get my dress altered. That's what sucks with having the dress already!! It's like I'm stuck at this weight!!! Actually, I hope that I can still fit into my dress!! But here is the problem...I don't have a home right now. Okay, so I do, but I am only there like two days out of the week if that. The rest of the time I live in town with Daniel and his parents. So I don't get the chance to eat healthy when I stay at his house.

Also, I read in a magazine that carbs curb depression. It's true!! Carbohydrates increase the amount of a certain chemical in the brain that makes you happier! The only problem I have with this is I get depressed, eat carbs, get fatter, get even MORE depressed! I am very down lately. I think I am still adjusting to the move back home. It is sooo tough going to see Daniel every day seeing him every once and a while. Plus, I got so used to sleeping with someone, that it's hard to sleep by myself.

Another tidbit that I read is that mashed tators help ward off stress!! When your body is stressed (which planning and PAYING for a wedding is super stressful), your body sends signals that it needs a constant supply of energy. Feeding your body high-fat and high-sugar foods tells your brain that you can relax, that you have enough energy to keep going.

I envy my sister so! She is one pound away from losing 30 pounds! *enter applause here* GO HER!!! I wish I was that strict and had time to eat healthy and work out!

So there you go, just an FK wishing she was skinnier!